Meagan Living

Erica.

Some how it all comes flooding back
A hurricane wipes it away and I’ve got nothing left
From trinkets to roofs
From lies to truths
From what I had to what I will never
And I feel as if I’m in it forever
Everythings shook
And I can feel the pressure
Pushing down on me
Pressing down on you
No man asks for this 
This never ending rush of water
Emotions in tear ducks and they keep digging farther
I can only imagine the lengths they would go
Dug deep into an empty room below
Digging the green mile headed straight to death row
But this truth could dig it’s way out of any jail
It lays in it’s cell and I’ve been holding it there
But I guess I always knew it would find it’s way out
There’s been a denial in every word I speak
When every word they say is speaking truth to me
Why am I so fucked up?
I’m completely love struck
But these lightning bolts, are like bullets 
And cupids arrows have already split
I smashed them on my knees
But somehow I keep begging for more
Joints already bruised
So what the hell am I really asking for?
I know the bitch will never come back
Yet my heart can just never seem process that 
It’s a jumble of concepts that I can’t learn
No matter how they’re taught, somehow they’re not heard
Through one ear and out the other
More like they never even made a shudder
Because this storm makes up for the lack of noise I hear
It has not stop shouting, not for two whole years
And the storm just gets stronger
This hurricane just grows longer
Every second grows harder
And the hurricane just conquers
I’ve mixed up what we were
And replaced it her
Because somehow, for some reason she’s what I prefer 
Somehow its that fear that I can’t help but yearn
I’ve given up hope
For ever wanting more
Because I’ve fallen in love
Fallen in love with the storm
And I can’t help but cry
Cry out to the rain
Cause I’ve nothing to hide
I’m out with the pain
Out with this love sucking, sense cutting, eye rubbing, vein drugging, mind fucking, heart flooding, hurricane.
And what do I call her, well it’s in the name.

-meagan living